Self harm by drawing alsatians pt 1

This morning I woke up with sick down one side of my face, Cava down the other, face down into a cleverly constructed (for someone that cannot remember) picture of a horse. Had I taken self harm to a new level? I once drew an alsatian as a form of punishment for erratic behaviour, and no, it wasn't one of the cruel teachers of the nineteen eighties that keep coming back to haunt us in the press attempting to humiliate me in front of the class, it was in fact me. Some people binge eat, others cut themselves but I draw animals to inflict pain and degradation on myself.