Friday, 3 December 2010

Why I really write this blog

Either friends of mine who are reading my blog - of friends of friends of mine who have been shown my blog - who themselves suffer from Bipolar have sent me some very encouraging emails, thanking me for my honesty, for "adding a little colour", and, as Cheryl said "thank you thank you - now i feel as though I belong to a group of people that live under our duvets rather than just me" with one of those smiley faces which is on the list of things I really have to come to terms with alongside buntin and sponge-cake.

It was actually the encouragement of last years CAT therapist who gave me the idea to write this blog (that's Cognitive Analytical Therapy, not feline) as she knows my outlet is cutting edge humour, at the same time my consultant (who I refer to as Mr Upstairs) was reading my draft novel and encouraging me to write more of the same - it's very similar to this, so I have both the NHS and Bipolar sufferers themselves motivating me and my blog.

But even so, I often wake up in the middle of the night and think "I can't say that!" and delete posts, which I get told off for doing, as the one's I delete are the hard hitting ones that I'm told should stay up there. For example a close friend had a suicide attempt recently which had a huge mental impact on me and for that reason he encouraged me to write about it, as will he in his own (video) blog, so I did, but removed it shortly after. And got told off for doing so.

So I shall continue with extracts of my mind, and other bipolaree's have said I can use extracts of their minds (within reason) but as my own mind is very up and down I'm afraid so will my posts be.

I get my cutting edge humour from my Dad by the way - if anyone is shocked by my jesting they must never meet him!

Keep those emails coming - they give me strength.

Pic - my hand made (action men) toilet roll dolls.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Kerry
    I just wanted to say thank you for your blog.
    I've been suffering from depression all my life but in the last decade it has reached the extreme and I now feel quite disabled by it.
    I have started my own blog which you might link to on yours if you like.
    By comparison with yours my blog is stuffy, dull, abstract and lifeless. Well, maybe that's a description of me! What I love about yours is the fun, humour LIFE in it. You are an amazing writer, very funny, very honest, very insightful. My way of having a support community has been to attend support groups here in Northern Ireland but I think that now have another source of comfort and support: blogs like yours. And just as the best thing about support groups is the amount of laughter we have there - and we do laugh at our situation A LOT! - your insights and wisdom are couched in humour.
    Many many thsnks from a sufferer. I will be spreading the word and adding a link to you on my blog. Please keep it up.
    David Hughes